New Food Plan

I've decided FA is not for me. Calling a sponsor everyday, and the limited food choices, cause me to feel that the FA food plan I was on would not work long term. I have decided that I will eat bread in limited amounts, and try to stick with whole grains, and stay away from white flour.

I think Over eaters anonymous will work better for me. I won't have to have 90 days of abstinence to speak in OA. I think as long as I weigh and measure my food, and have some friends and family for support that I will lose weight steadily and maintain a healthy weight for the rest of my life.

Food Plan

I haven't been following my food plan that well in the past few days. I have to get back on track if I want to continue to lose weight. I am encouraged to lose more, since I did lose some. I think it was 12 pounds. I might have gained some back now not sure? I'm trying not to think long term too much. I guess just losing a few pounds a month will keep me happy. After a year or two I will be at my goal weight which I think is going to be 180. I'll try to keep this up to date on my weight loss progress, and throughout my manic-depressive phases.

I Fell of the Wagon

I have been binge eating lately. Tuesday in particular, I ate a lot of things that I shouldn't have. I am trying to get back in track. This new way of eating isn't easy for me, it is helping me lose weight, so it's worth it.

Youtube

I'm working on posting to you tube about my addiction to food, and manic-depression. There seem to be quite a few videos dealing with binge eating and other eating disorders. When I do put some videos up on youtube I plan on posting a link to it from my blog.

Better Today

I had a difficult day a few days ago. Today was much better. My physical health isn't as good. I have problems with my knees, part of that is from my weight I'm sure.

It's a beautiful January day today, which is great for my mental health.

Deep Depression

I had an awful day yesterday. I'm not sure if I missed a dose of my meds or not? I cheated on my food plan yesterday, but even then I measured it out. I guess I thought 2 oz. of cheese would be ok. I felt hungry yesterday, for the most part I don't feel hungry with this new way of eating.

Am I really powerless over food?

I have a problem with the notion that I am powerless over food. That is part of what FA claims is that food addicts are powerless over food. I don't agree with that. Either food addicts eat healthy food or they don't. They do have power over food. With the food plan they are choosing to eat some foods, and not others.

FAA Food Plan

Here's a link to a group FAA's food plan. I go to FA, but this one seems like a healthy plan too! FAA Food Plan

3 Meetings a week

My sponsor at FA would like me to go to 3 meetings a week. I have a food scale now, so that will help me stay within the portions I need to eat. I'm feeling good about FA and how it is already helping me to a healthier and happier life.

FA Meeting

I am going to a meeting today. I'm excited. It will be a great experience to be with others in recovery, and to support each other and work toward a common goal. There are parts of the food plan that I don't like, but I think eliminating sugar is a good idea. I don't like the exclusion of olives and nuts. I will do whatever it takes to get better though. As the pounds come off, my mood will improve, and my mental and physical well being will be taken care of.

FA Call & Depression

An FA member called today. I was busy at the time, so I felt bad that I couldn't talk longer.

It turns out that I don't have what I need for my food plan, I have some (fruits, vegetables). I have protein, which is important to the food plan. So far I have been staying as close as possible to the foods I need to be health.

I did fell deeply depressed this morning & cried when I thought about how much I love Katherine, and how badly it hurts not to have her with me in a romantic relationship. It makes me sad to have only a friendship with the girl I love so much. In the beginning there was so much hope, joy and excitement. Now it's a struggle to earn her trust. I hope it is possible, or better yet likely.

FA Meeting Today

I'm going to the Sunday meeting for FA today. I'm looking forward to it. So far I am sticking with my food plan pretty well. I look forward to continuing weight loss and a healthy life.

Mixed Nuts

Here is a chat room for people with mental illness

http://www.mixednuts.net/chatroom.html

A book and some helpful sites

I am reading a book called "Why Can't I Stop Eating" Here is a link to is on Amazon.com http://www.amazon./Why-Cant-Stop-Eating-Understanding/dp/1568383657/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1262510670&sr=1-1

I have some links to bipolar and a food addiction sites.

DBSA

http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=home

NAMI

http://www.nami.org/

FA

http://www.foodaddicts.org/

OA

http://www.oa.org/

Beginning FA

I recently started going back to Food Addicts Obvious...I mean Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous. It seems to make sense to me. The food plan is sensible the people are nice to be around and supportive. Best of all they understand me, and my struggle with food addiction. I think being Manic-Depressive contributes to my struggle. Mood swings affect my appetite, so that is working against me. I do believe I can overcome my addiction and live a healthier life!